“Why should I feel discouraged, why should the shadows come. Why should my heart be lonely, and long for my heav’n and home. When Jesus is my portion? My constant Friend is He. His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me. His eye is on the sparrow, and I know He watches me.”
Hello my name is Trina Tatum. I’m a mother of two beautiful girls, stepmother to six wonderful kids. I am a daughter, sister, friend and a Christian woman who became a widow at the tender age of 44.
Growing up, I sang the above lyrics so many times as a member of the youth choir and continue to sing it now. Yet, it is not until one is dropped into the eye of the storm that these same lyrics serve to be the amazing grace that one needs in order to endure and be better.
God answers prayers and directs every beat of our hearts and he knew what my heart needed when he allowed my husband Leonard to entire my world. Leonard was not only my soulmate, he was my best friend, my lover, my confidant, my better half and my covering.
The journey of a thousand miles started for me in later November, 2013. My husband was diagnosed with Non-Hodgkin’s Lymphoma, yes, cancer. After allowing ourselves to be human and let the tears flow openly, we both declared that we would continue to keep the faith and praise God during every test, during every shot, during every bout of fatigue, during fear, during frustration, during testing, and during the hardest trial of our lives. Yes, during every step of the way!!!
I did what a wife, mother and woman would do (naturally), I got my praise ON!!! Thanking God for the healing that I was about to witness. I had no other choice but to believe by faith that the ultimate will of God would unfold in our lives because His eye is on the sparrow.
I continued to go to work. Continued to do what a wife does out of love — I took care of my wonderful husband and our children as my husband Leonard did 14 rounds of chemo and five rounds of dialysis.
Through this whole time, I watched him transform. Our worship and praise got even stronger. Our love for God got deeper and I knew Leonard was going to be healed regardless, whether it was here with me on earth or with our Father in Glory.
On October 10, 2014 we celebrated our 5th wedding anniversary in the confines of the hospital. We watched television, had an intimate talk, laughed & joked around until we were worn out from excitement. We sipped on chicken broth, apple juice and Popsicle’s. It was the best anniversary ever, it was special!
On October 13, 2014, I witnessed my husband receiving his healing from cancer. Leonard looked at me, smiled and asked me to pray for him. He told me to put my right hand behind his head and pray. He looked into my eyes and said, “I’m dying.” I looked him back in his eyes deeply and I told him in declaration, “You will live and not die.”
Leonard yelled out GRACE and then REST!!! I immediately saw the peace in my Len’s (as I passionately called him) face and body. Have Mercy! LEONARD TATUM WAS HEALED. People say that I’m strong. I’m not strong; I just know where my help comes from, My Lord and Savior. We asked for healing and we received a permanent lifelong healing.
What I’ve learned throughout this experience was to never stop praising God & his Son Jesus. Praise God and Jesus for the good and the bad. Throughout all of the doctor’s appointments, chemo, blood work , fatigue, time at church, the movies, dinner and even while shopping at Costco ;-).
God will give you the strength and joy to smile and when you remember that God is in control of everything, you will have no choice but to be Better and never Bitter!
God is taking me places I have never been before and I love it!!!!
Move Forward In Righteousness XOXO♥
Special Thanks: Telling your story is not always easy, but, it is necessary for liberation, healing and most importantly, to help those who need a word of encouragement to continue to stay in the fight. So, I pray that my childhood friend’s story has blessed you in ways you don’t even realize. Trina, God shall grant you beauty for ashes! I am honored to know you and share your powerful story!